abstain from complaining too much~

dear friends & loved ones,

today is another day buddha is showering its teachings on me. i was totally suprised and sadden by the news. deep down, the person affected is really not into any mood or thoughts of expressing herself but her focus should be on her child. its not easy to come to terms with this case, who could... even i myself doesn't know which appropriate way to approach this friend of ours.....i pray hard to god, to give her hope & shine her with the uttest WILL to be strong for herself & her new family. at times we would complain over petty issues or even whine at things we own. day by day, buddha always reminded me to never repeat that attitude nor feel depress when we are faced with setbacks, of course, setbacks aren't easy to face, but when it comes to health & wellbeing, nothing can ever overcome this topic, not even money. Money is the god & ghost of every human beings, it solves our misery yet adds up to it too. Probably money issues can alwayz be an on-going thing in our lives only thing is to see if your lucky enough to be on the gaining side or losing side. Its just like gambling. But some things doesnt.... I have again pocketed this reminder to never again be a whinner, unhappy person, ego & the worst case = jealous freak! no no. I would rather be a clown and be a happy person to others, let it be as a joker for them to laugh, but the least I can do is laughter to the crowd when we are together. being positive ain't an easy task, but now i have to learn to hold on tightly to this believe. I must always remind myself. to break someones spirit is an easy task or to even be jealous & envious towards our friends and enemies is inevitable easy to do, but will it bring health and money to your side? rather than wasting effort itchy bitching about your contenders or allies everytime in every conversation, why not just keep a mum and depart those topics away. When anger hits us, once we let out after lashing out / even crying, we must try to keep a happy mind of the things we have & are blessed...aside from that, let it be kept in the pandora box. To solve something or not, its not up to us alone most of the time, but rather the understanding of both parties to either sit in to talk it over once and for all , if not, chuck it away as a forgotten past. Lesson learnt and annoying people ignored. Now I have a tendancy to just forget things which are not important to me coz by doing that, I just don't want to be reminded how sadness felt. I want to enjoy present events & of course I look foward to the future but lets just say, I will try my best and not let things be wasted just like that. Upon saying all this long and winding theories... lets us claps our hands together and feel the blessings everytime we earned something nice, be it cheap/free/simple/expensive/etc....just feel its existance and tell yourself, "I am blessed"...to me it works wonders.I hope it does to you too....may our friend be fully recovered and enjoy the life every woman wishes to have! omitofot....

rejection fees

as hot as I am, there's no room to scream and vent my anger. just this afternoon after months of silent persuasion, I sms my clients assistant to seek information on the payments. She ask of me if I have called her bos, seeing such reply, I rang her bos. To my utter disgust, he scolded me in return on saying my work is like shit and said I didn't do much to the changes. I remembered well I was told to wait for changes since he wanted to add penthouses to the condo. Pending for a while, I thought it was time to bill him. Now he replies as if I am a bloody loan shark chasing for money! come on Alex of OBS!, this is my first phone call to you, don't make it sound like I have always ring and chase after this payment. Before was only a sms, no reply. What angered me was really the attitude and the least since my 3d wasnt accepted, Do have a courtesy to inform me about it & at least I can acept it with a more open heart rather than keep quiet & let me make a fool of myself by billing you!! There's something called rejection fees. There's no such thing as reject without paying up. If you don't intend to pay, at least AT LEAST! just inform me and negotiate on it rather than keeping silent and rudely scold me back for I didn't know whats happening??!! I have worked for many clients, this is one of the worst!! ever.... No more trusting on friends to get a job. Whenever it comes to collection, their asses are up their faces. Is this the way the businnesses goes around? thats what makes the circle breaks & the industry dead because of people like this. I have professional 3D companies who doesnt deliver quality as expected but yet they still charge clients for it and people still payup! I hate this industry where freelancers are not protected, even businesses are not protected because of people like that.

clash of titans

i like medusa, olympians & myths of the ancient greece. The movie clash of the titans, great 3d effects...but a short too summarized ending. Disapointed with the ending but was thrilled by the overall pickup of the story. .... Zeus~ *

given any chance XD

given any chance, i would like to :

-create a association for designers welfare & protection. Setup a collection centre for designers~*ahem* . Why should designers be controlled slaves to agencies/groups that doesnt even understand Designs & just uses their mouth to sway left & right >>not to mention their time spent on starbucks and other luxury that makes them look GLAM but inside = kosong*. If they can sell and make big bucks for both parties, okla, but alwayz wana tax a big portion but not working their best to sell, but rather BOW to unreasonable changes. You tapow rice 2 bungkus oso u goto pay 2 bungkus price, eventough its not tasty, U still have to pay, where got buy 1 bungkus & keeps adding "lauk" without additional charges?? siao! people, understand this theoryla.... if u need a designer, use us as consultant, we will adapt to ur needs but if u soo clever have all your own say, then better u do everything ur own way & talk to a contractor directly. easier..... there are times we can adpot your concept and make proper proposals, if its just a copy & budget tight thing, forget it la. Designs are very subjective, it varys greatly, so open up & learn to acept new thingslo.....

-not work under that curly fella again.

-give a punching & paintball session(without armour) on my ex, wack the daylight out of him

-get a good spa treatment & rejuvinate my mental health

-get more chihuahuas!

-vacations & bring family for great outings

-as usual, earn big bucks....and more big bucks~

memory lapse

When anger fuels someones mind, macam macam words will come out. I know I've poured the wrong word out but its just so tense on that very moment that I blurted** out that word. I can't say I feel guilty on the use of it, but I just can't use any other words to describe his actions. I also know its a harsh word , again, my own error again. Its rude of me and I am remorseful over it. The word used was to scold people whois stuborn & just don't LISTEN to what someone else goto say. Yeah, mom alway says, don't scold others as it might reflect back onto you....aii...hope this won;t fall back onto me~teheee ;) ! I myself am a very forgetful person & pekak (prob due to the daily use of sound blasting headphones haha) n who knows as I age, I might even be a stuborn cow!! [touchwood dun wan a] hahaha we will never know right~? (of kose I pray hard I don't wana become a "mangsatt" ponya person when I age).

Whenever we tend to judge people on their behaviour, have we ever reflect back on ours? It might be true that as people age, they tend to think they know everything~!! and will never want to acept what others goto say. The theory goes as, "eat till old learn till old".I hope and pray that I will age gracefully and charmingly hahaha. People's attitude will change from time to time, change for the better or worst, hard to say, just try to put yourself into their shoes for a minute before you speak your mind ;)