those who speaks only for themselves

Need I not say much or was it that my trust on words were breached by others? I guess lady luck doesn't seemed to fancy me and my family. Its always the opposite to what I have described and always when I am there to enjoy it, its always not as enjoyable as compared to when my presence is not there. hmmm... luck again I may say. I guessed saying I am used to it is a norm, but everytime it will inflict a mini scar to it. Learning to be strong one shall say, I think it should be phrased as " learning to be heartless". Again I have gained a new perspective and I will be firm. I guess I should really shut up and do my things. Words shared at times will always be broken and i wished there is a place called the "complain all you can area" and lash out our anger. The least I know I feel safe and I have no fear that these words will be used agaisnt me in the future shall any friendship be awry. Can I do it? I will try to not speak up and keep words in a blog rather than sharing it to others.Mouth to mouth is worst than reading the exact meaning from the author. anyway have a happy life everybody.

hectic august and hopefully smooth sailing afterwards

Last month was pretty hectic for me. When I am free, I am totally free till I laze around the house feeling down and depressed. August was happy for me as I received 2 job orders , well excited as I am, hey this spells cash~ then when I am there promising acomplishing datelines just to please my new clients, there I have , a bundle of work to rush out for my bosses. Just when you thought, "YES~", there again another big pail of water splashing over me.How are you going to finish up your office work say about 10pm, then go home and rush out the other jobs overnight for the coming 2-3 days. Well that was what I did and I was blown away by all the changes and requirements.....can cry, TIMING TIMING~* at times, live is very much about >luck & timing. If the orientation of these both aligns itself just at the perfect momentum, you get what ppl say "golden opportunity". Oh course its always in the mind ;P hahahahaha But thank god I pulled thru it and of cousrse, I really don't know the outcome from my clients...verdict might be promising or it might be disapointing. Heck, I am used to disapointments lately, so I just goto tell myself, its alright, this one takra, work hard for the next. So because of this, I got myself a new PC and whooping swipe my card ....... adoi card can pecah dy. hahahaha Investment from my side. I will set a target to hibernate...again, I dont dare to plan, just wana stay cool and low and do my things. Being bombarded left and right really left me wounded,its time to heal and time to stay focus. THere's many more to life and I believe it can be done. cheerzz~