June~ 2011

Gosh....I haven't even posted my pics on my korea trip which was about 4 months ago. Well, anyway, I have been pretty much packed lately with office work. Don't seemed to be happy about the workflo assigned lately. What more can I say, nor what more can I complain. Just today when I was asked to do a job, of course we would narrow down the pricing to > ok, what's the price. So of course seeing a high-rise would meant..hmm okla this price. Manatau when I open mouth to quote em, he gave me a " oo " coz when I say "super cheap" he seemed not to agree to it. Sigh.... Just today I saw a 3D done by the outside people hunt down by my bos. I was told they quoted $7k for a night scene with a mere 3days to produce. Thats when I refresh my mind about my job to the other firm. 3days too...and the feedback I got was disapointing. To the fact that they expected marketing level paid @ a peanut price. I tried to calm myself by saying "I'm not up to par" but at times it makes you wonder your value worthy or not in this field. Or shall I say, pure luck. Maybe wealth isn't flowing in nicely last year and this year. Back then, any pricing I quoted was an approved thing. No problems at all. Lately..its just people asking for quotes and comparing hard...I have to go back to my price reviews and mark down my prices to fight with students. Imagine it...people goes up with the pricing, I have to narrow DOWN to suit the price for a freelance and to slash prices to be at the students level. Whats wrong with our country? WHats wrong with clients actually? Half year..and I'm not marking any big fees inputting into my account. So what makes a good joy in living this life? without an income nor freelance...i wouldn't even survive with all the debts hovering around my face. The saying goes, Ups & Downs... hope the downs are over and please elevate me to a different level for I have gone thru alot of struggles not seeing any results which can make me have a peace of mind. Its merely a "thankful" situation that kept me from crumbling in this nasty world. Guess we;ll just have to wait and see whats the spinning wheel of luck can I get. At the mean time, I am thankful for the things I have....just a mere frustrated moment to burp out since its soo hard to actually have a proper chat with anyone lately.omitofot...